A Moment of Vulnerability

16At my first defense, no one came to my support, but everyone deserted me. May it not be held against them. 17But the Lord stood at my side and gave me strength, so that through me the message might be fully proclaimed and all the Gentiles might hear it. And I was delivered from the lion's mouth. 18The Lord will rescue me from every evil attack and will bring me safely to his heavenly kingdom. To him be glory for ever and ever. Amen.....2 Timothy 4:16-18

Okay, so I have to admit that I've been feeling a little lonely lately. I am single--divorced now for almost 2 years after 2 separations that total 5 years.

I see couples together--couples that are living their marriages and relationship through God, and this makes me lonely. I come home from work to an empty home, and this makes me lonely. I eat dinner alone, no partner to have conversation with, and this makes me lonely. I go to bed at night, alone, and again I feel the sometimes emptiness of my life.

My family no longer speaks to me because of my beliefs, and the best, the most--ALL--I can do is to pray for them.

I go to work for 8 hours every day, keep myself busy in the evenings--yet still my mind wanders.

At times, I do feel deserted and as though there is no one by my side to give me the support that I need to carry me through the days, the weeks, the years.

And then, as I read these verses, I realize that I do have everything I need in this life. God will never desert me. He will always stand at my side and give me the strength that I need. He hears my cries regarding my family and my vulnerabilities, and He understands--more than I can ever imagine.

So, I will wait expectantly upon God to continue working in my life. I know that He will fulfill whatever needs I may have.

I need to focus my eyes, my heart, my mind upon Jesus. He is the only One that can fill this great emptiness I am feeling.

My Father,

Help me to keep my focus on You and You alone. Help me to always be aware of your presence in my life, moment to moment.

I know that anxiety, worry, frustration and loneliness are not feelings that You want me to have. Please come and fill me with Your love. Let me feel your embrace and know that You are all I need in this life.

My reward awaits me. To Him be glory for ever and ever.

In Jesus' precious Name.....